With a new study in Moscow came the move. And now I'm already writing this story lying in a new bed, and next to me a loved one is watching a TV series. Tomorrow I have a consultation with a psychologist. I really hope that my treatment will be successful and I will feel much better. I think everything will be fine.

Remember that health is the most important thing in life.
The rest can wait.

In my project, I would like to share with you my inner feelings and conflicts that I struggled with.

For 16 years I lived in my hometown of Zhukovsky with my mother. it was a very difficult time so we couldn't find a common language.there were some conflicts from scratch and a lot of misunderstandings between us. Very often I just didn't want to go home, you know that now there will be another scandal.

My dad has been living with my sister in Moscow for 3 years. My brother has been studying in Scotland for a long time. When they left, it became especially difficult, my mother shifted all her daily stress to me. therefore, the internal aggression began to end in me too early.

My condition began to deteriorate. I didn't want to go to school, I felt as insecure as possible even in the quietest places. It became simply unbearable for me to make new acquaintances, I was afraid that I would not understand you, they would not accept you. I became very withdrawn and short-tempered.

One day I couldn't stand it and signed up for a consultation with a psychiatrist. After a week of appointments, I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder and prescribed medications. I was in 2 months but nothing helped. I got upset and gave up this activity.

I was angry with myself that I couldn't understand some simple tasks that I wasn't trying hard enough. I began to show my inner aggression on myself.

I tried very hard to behave with restraint and did not show all the storm of emotions to accumulate in me for a long time. I tried to stay afloat.